Where’s the world I used to live in? ๐ŸŒ

Today was one of my nostalgic days, looking through the old photos and remembering everything. And I discovered for myself a very important thing. This world isn’t the same anymore. Primitive? Yeah, everyone says that, but I don’t think everyone really gets that. People used to be so much happier, brighter and lighter (in both senses of the word) than they are now. People knew how to live, how to have fun. When I was a child, there weren’t such luxurious cars and houses and phones and so on, everything was simple, and poorer, but it seems like people didn’t care about that. When it snowed, for example, nobody was complaining that much. They didn’t think about the inconvenience or  dirt, everyone was going outside and playing, and I am not talking about the kids only. I am talking about the same adults that now behave themselves like Scrooges. And people were less careless, but much simpler and kinder. Everyone’s houses were almost the same, little, old, but really warm and cozy, because you could feel the spirit of the home, and not just a house where people just eat and sleep. I look through the pictures of birthdays, New Years, or just gatherings, and I see the sincere joy, how people enjoyed their time, sitting and talking about stuff, dancing or playing sth. Now everything is compulsory. To go to someone’s birthday not because you want to, but because you have to, it’s not polite and rude and bla bla bla. Because people forgot what it means to have real fun. Because whenever you try to make a conversation it usually begins with complaining and negativity. People are becoming robots, machines, that have some functions in their frames and they must do them. 

I really miss that times, and I really pity the fact, that we can’t turn time back and have now what we had before. And I’m looking through the photos…2000, 2003, 2006, 2008, 2010 and so on.. Everything is becoming newer, more beautiful, more luxurious, the houses the streets the cars. And in the contrary, people are becoming sadder more depressed and you can totally see that on their faces, the unhappy faces, like they have the world’s problem. And that’s the thing. That’s what I understood. People and their lives are getting richer, while the persons and their souls are getting poorer. And the worst part is that it is unalterable. Even if you try to live, let’s say, out of this material world, it will not change the whole world. 

And every time I am getting more sure that happiness is not money. It’s not wealth, it’s not the new iphone 7, which, in fact is almost the same damn thing as iphone 6. And if someone “is the happiest person in this world” because he/she got the new iphone, or a car for example,  I am really sorry for that person because he/she doesn’t know what is real happiness. Of course it’s great to get happy for everything, even for a chocolate for instance, but you can’t connect your happiness with materialistic stuff. It feels like I am repeating the same thing over and over again, but that’s what’s going on in my head now, and I think I could write volumes on this subject. 

Happiness is so simple. It’s inside us, inside every single one of us. And it’s the highest level of absurd   trying to find it somewhere else, connect it with someone or something, while in reality it lives in our souls. I really hope that everyone would understand that and stop the process of robotization, just thinking about money, how to get it, how to keep it, how not to lose it. You will not have money when you die, but you’ll have your souls. Don’t let them die before your bodies do. 

P.S. when I say everything or everyone I don’t literally mean it, I am really happy that there are still many exceptions. It’s just easier to speak with generalization.

Too much of Rome ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡น

Rome, the city of love…pff, who am I kidding, the city of pizza, of course, I would eat it every single day. #pizzaislife ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ•

So what was I speaking about? Yeah right, Rome. The beautiful city with positive and warm aura. With the sky so bright, and the streets and building so artistics, that not every picture or sculpture can replace it. I was like a building-maniac, taking pictures of every building I see, because they were all so damn beautiful. I got very envious of peope who live there and get to see all that every day. And everything was filled with so much positive and great energy that you never felt tired, even after walking 15km per day. You could feel the soul, the spirit of the country, and it is true that the dwellers represent their country, their culture. Just like italians, their city is really joyful and, I don’t know how to say that, alive maybe? That’s the thing I love about this kind of cities. You don’t have to go to the museums and galleries to get acquainted with their history and culture and art. I really don’t like museums, for me they are almost all like, ‘here’s a piece of stone, which the king someone saw lying on the ground, on his way home and bla bla bla.’ I can see that very stone or the tools they were using online. But in the cities I walk not like a tourist, but as an inhabitant of that very city, trying to feel myself a part of it and just see the beauty of everything. This is what I call acquaintance with culture or country. The buildings, the streets, the ruins, people and their spirit represent the country with its everything.

One thing I didn’t like was the huge amount of tourists, who were, I think intentionally, standing in the places, where I wanted to take a pic, or just wanted to see something. Annoying mortals, didn’t let me enjoy the view of the city completely. Yes, I am obsessed with cities and nature and building and animals, and everything but people, I don’t love them, sorry not sorry. 

Anyway, instead of spamming the IG, I decided to upload some photos here. I know it’s too much, but there is still a video coming, so haha 


Christmas Throwback ๐ŸŽ„

The 19th Christmas of my life. The last one of my teenage years. How fast time flies. It feels like yesterday, when I was getting ready for the previous Christmas. I started remembering all decembers, all New Years that I have had, and I wanted to share my nostalgic mood โ„๏ธ

Christmas and New Year were always my favorite holidays, I loved them even more than my birthday. I really loved looking how the city got decorated with all the lights and christmas trees. I loved watching the same movies like Home alone and I never got tired of them. I always loved decorating the house, I always had some ideas of decorations, which I thought were really cool, but now, as I look over the old photos, I really laugh at myself and my decorating skills as I was a child. Writing a letter to Santa Claus, and than waiting for him to appear. Spying on my parents, trying to see whether they put the Santa’s presnet under the tree or not.Getting something that I wanted for a long time was one of my favorite things. But in reality, it wasn’t about the presents.I loved them, of course, but it’s not what I remember now, what I got. I remember how I was searching in the house for my presents, when my parents weren’t home, but even after finding them, I never opened them, because it would ruin the excitement. I remember ‘stealing’ my mother’s make-up, and re-presenting her her own lipstick, for instance, how clever I was. And I always made cards, which made my parents really happy. I remember the smell of burned candles, of citruses and fake snow. How we always create some games to play with our guests, and our home-parties were the best ones. How we always dressed up something funny, and dance and sing. And how we play snowballs and made a snowman not only with children, but also with adults, who, btw, enjoyed playing more than us. I am very lucky to have such amazing memories, because in the end all we really have is memories, so we should try to live the perfect life, to have then the perfect memories. A lot has changed since I was a child. Now we don’t play games with our guests anymore, or dress up, because everybody seems to be tired with these holidays and everything. People make Christmas only about eating and presents. They don’t enjoy the spirit of the holiday, which makes me really sad. When I was a child, we didn’t have everything that we have now. Nobody did. There were a lot of things that were hard to find and to buy, but still, the holidays of that times were real, were merry, and bright. I am really glad that my family still enjoys  Christmas and has some traditions or habits connected with it. One thing that hasn’t changed for me, is the fact that I still love and enjoy and believe in Christmas as I did as a child. And it’s not about Christmas only, it is the attitude towards life. How we picture everything, the same way we get it. 

And I don’t know how, but memories make me both happy and sad at the same time, and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be (I feel you, Charlie). But I still smile whenever I remember something, which I think is a good sign. Never let your inner child die. Rejoice everything good, and all the bad things will not be so important anymore. 

And it’s still too early to write Merry Christmas, isn’t it? ๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿป

The Spirit of the Season โ„๏ธ

๐ŸŽง It’s the spirit of the season, you can feel it in the air, you can hear it if you listen ๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŽ„

Currently listening to this song over and over again. It’s Christmas time already yaay โค๏ธ Couldn’t be more excited, counting the days and fulfilling my Winter to-do list. One of the things that I love, is how sometimes I manage to infect or inspire people about something that I really love, either movie, tv-show, season or holiday,or  whatever. Having good mood and motivation and sharing it increases your mood and motivation, because you know you helped someone to feel better even for a moment. It’s one of the things that we all should do anytime but especially on Christmas. So I’d like to write some stuff that I enjoy doing at this time. I really hope that I’ll make anyone love Christmas a little more. And sorry for using the word ‘Christmas’ too much, I just can’t help doing it.

Making this moment infinite, as my old friend Charlie would say. Taking photos or even videos, writing what you think at this time, maybe adding some songs that you are listening now. Make this moment live forever and be a great story to tell later in life.

Spread the Christmas cheer. Only you can decide whether you want to ‘bah hambug’ everyone and everything or rejoice in this magical time.Don’t be a Grinch or Scrooge. Decorate your place, listen, read and watch Christmas songs, stories and movies respectively. Bake holiday cookies, make hot chocolate, go outside, play snowballs, do something handmade. Create your own bucket list and try to do everything you wrote.

Forget about every negative thing that surround you all year round. Problems and exams and other bullshit get your energy all the time, so this is the perfect time to create the new-me, reorganizing all our thoughts wishes and aims, balancing our life and energy and feeling our inner self, realizing who we really are and what we want in this life. All the lights and candles and snow, that covers everything and creates kind of a new world, will always help you. 

Be Thankful ๐ŸŒž

Happiness is appreciation of everything that you have”. There are many understandings of happiness, this one is my personal opinion about it. You can’t be happy if you aren’t thankful for what you have, and you concentrate on what you don’t. We should appreciate everything that we have in our lives, even if that everything is not enought according to our dreams. We have the opportunity to wake up everyday, to see things, experience, try new things even if they end up being a failure. We have  family, friends, food to eat, water to drink, and last but definitely not least, a life to live. With all its difficulties,  bad experiences, embarrassing moments life is beautiful and worths to live. To wake up everyday, knowing that you can change your life, that you have another day to do something important or something that you fancy. And yes, these are the things to be grateful for. When we compare ourselves with others, we always see our disadvantages and see what others have and we don’t. And when, for example, you tell someone that at least he or she has home, food and water compared to so many people in Africa, who dream about a full cup of water, the person always laughs and says that these situations are incomparable, which is wrong. We should see how the fate could turn to us, but it didn’t and be grateful for that. What I am saying is that even if we have problems, don’t have some things that we would like to have, we still should be grateful. As they say, positive attracts more positive, and if we start thinking positively about what we have, we will get what we want. And from there comes happiness. 

The Positive Side โ˜ฏ๏ธ

Do you ever have a feeling that everything just goes wrong? Like you just woke up and from that very minute the whole world is against you. Everyone has such days, and we always get nervous because of the events goind wrong. I get angry too in such situations but I keep trying to see the positive sides of everything. And it usually works, maybe not at once, but at least at the end of a ‘wrong day’ I look back with less anger at what happened. I don’t talk about something particular now, it can be anything. For example, you get sick on your exam days and have to  retake them all alone, you have to take some responsibilities of your life, or do something that you’ve never done before. In such cases I think we should just face our problems or fears and overcome them, because it is life or God that gives us these lessons that we should learn, and the more we run away from them, the more complicated they become for us. And once we just stand up and do what we always feared to do, it becomes less awful and scary and we become stronger and more mature and it feels like we grow up more in that couple of days or hours than we did in a whole year.

But when the ‘wrong situations’ are some circumstances that we can’t change, for example the awful weather, or change of plans, traffic, or something else, we just should be calm about that. Of course they are unpleasant situations but if we can’t change them, why should we get nervous about them? I mean, people always say, if you can’t change the situation( God, I use this word way too much), change your attitude towards it and it is true. Let the events take place as they should, because everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t know it. Everything goes as it should, and we don’t have the power to interact on God’s decisions. And besides everything has its good sides. And maybe snow on the first of November is bad and inconvenient, the roads are closed, it gets really cold, but also it is beautiful. Of course it would be better if it doesn’t snow until Christmas, for instance, but it is what it is, we can’t change it right, so we should enjoy it. The little miracle that snow makes, especially at night, when the lights of the lamp posts  reflect on the snow and sparkle. It really reminds me of Narnia and Mr Tumnus โ„๏ธโœจ 

So what I was saying is that we shouldn’t be so dramatic about everything bad that happens in our lives. We should accept it and try to stay cool because the only person we hurt by our anger or nervousness is us. Life is a really beautiful and great thing, we should live it, not survive.

Trick or Treat ๐ŸŽƒ

‘This is Halloween, this is Halloween Pumpkins scream in the dead of night…’

If you know from where is this lyrics, I love you already โค๏ธ

It’s almost Halloween, one of my favorite holidays. I know it’s a little early for this, but I’m in Halloween mood for about 2 weeks or even more. I try to ignore the fact, that I live in a country, where most people don’t celebrate or don’t even know about this day, that some shops are already selling Christmas stuff, and that some people even think of Halloween as a “omg, we’re Christians, we don’t celebrate it, it is a devil’s holiday”. I really hate when people talk bullshit about anything, not only this day, without knowing anything about it. And if there are such people who are reading this right now and who hate Halloween for nothing, here’s some information about this “devil’s day”.

It is widely believed that many Halloween traditions originated from Celtic harvest festivals and that this festival was Christianized as Halloween. Some academics, however, support the view that Halloween began independently as a solely Christian holiday. In many parts of the world, the Christian religious observances of All Hallows’ Eve, includes attending church services and lighting candles on the graves of the dead.

I don’t want to write what is Halloween, how it started, what roots it has, because for me it is just a fun but also a mystical day. It’s like Christmas, but a creepy one, with pumpkins instead of Christmas trees. It all begins with the preparation, finding and carving the perfect pumpkin, creating your costume, baking some treats, watching movies, and having a party, even a little one ( I’m singing ‘A little party never killed nobody’ in my head right now ๐ŸŽถ )

But also this is the time of scary stories, mystery and magic, if you believe in this kind of stuff. As I believe that the world is not only this materialistic one, that there are parallel universes and power that is way stronger than anything else, this is the perfect day for me. Burning some candles, divination, meditation are great essentials for Halloween. As well as ghosts, black cats, witches and Jack o’ Lantern ๐ŸŽƒ

If you like Halloween, but don’t feel its spirit, here are some movies that can give you Halloween mood ๐Ÿ‘ป

  1. Halloweentown
  2. Twitches
  3. Hocus Pocus
  4. Casper
  5. The Good Witch
  6. The Nightmare Before Christmas (although I am not quite sure, whether I should watch this for Halloween or Christmas )

And at last, don’t take everything so seriously, find something that can give you good mood, think of everything positively. You can hate Halloween and have a dull day as the others, or you can start loving it and celebrate and have one more special day in a year. We all have choices, what’s important is whether we make the right ones. Happy Halloween ! ๐ŸŽƒ๐Ÿ‘ป

Collect moments, not things ใ€ฐ

I love the moments when I get inspired and motivated by something or someone and that it really makes me think about life, its sense, people and their dreams or aims. Have you ever thought what is the sense, the meaning, the aim of life? Money? Love? Being famous? The answers are so different, but in my humble opinion the right answer is the follow shocking sentence. There is no sense or aim for a life. Or we can paraphrase the sentence and say The meaning of life is nothing. Yes it is. Because life is what is happening at this very moment, and while you are trying to figure out what is your aim for your life, the life is disappearing. The meaning of life is the moment you wake up in the morning, the moment you walk, breathe, listen to music, read a book, watch a movie. And no complication. People always try to do something for their future, to be able to ‘live good, and to support their future children and so on’. And they forget to live, to think about the present. But what if that future never comes? What if tomorrow  is going to be the end of the world? When we say ‘I’ll do it later’, but what if the later never comes? It is kind of scary to think about any stuff like this, but this is the truth. The truth is that people live boring. They never do what they really want and love. They are afraid not only of others’ opinions, of not being understood, but also of failure. People always complain about their unhappy life, but they never do anything to correct and change it. And when you say them to do something they go like oh, c’mon, it’s unbelievable and impossible.

But every person has his own way of living, dreams and aims and no one has to judge another for being different. That’s the problem. People are afraid of being different. Of being judged and misunderstood. And though it is hard but we have to  approve the fact that there is nothing bad in being different.
As I said I always get motivated and it is really amazing, how, for instance, a picture with some quote can help me kind of change my life. I just realized what really makes me happy at this moment. Adventures. Exploring. And seeing. Seeing new things, beautiful and awesome things, which can be a piece of art, nature, building or anything else. Trying new things, even if don’t have enough courage to do something you love, you have to do this. And this is the only ‘have to’ in your life. You have to do what you love unless it interferes other peoples’ lives. If you want to jump with a parachute, to dye your hair pink, get a piercing or tattoo, move to another country you have to do that, if it is really what you want. 

Being repeated again but…Exploring. Adventures. That’s what really fascinates me now. Especially when I find some new amazing places in my own city, district it is the best feeling for me. That’s what gives you not knowledge, no, it is relative understanding, but some kind of wisdom. The awareness of beautiful and universal love, which is not only loving your boyfriend/girlfriend, no it is loving and appreciating the life. 

And finally, do what you love, and you’ll love what you do. A crazy sentence at first sight, but it does have a sense.  โœ”๏ธ


Christmas time ๐ŸŽ„

It’s Christmas time in the city. I’m so Christmasy right now, though the Christmas Day already passed. But there is still New Year coming. It’s the best of the year, with all the Christmas cheer.. I know that I use the word Christmas too much, but I don’t care, I love it. It’s not about the presents or anything else.. It’s the lights, spirit of the holidays, happy gatherings with friends and family, and of course it’s all about magic. And no, you are never old for magic, for believing. It’s the time when strangers in the streets are somehow connected, and are a little bit happier. I really love everything Christmas-related, decorations, music, movies and right now I am listening to Christmas songs and it really gets me in the mood. And the one thing I want to do in this time of the year is making people be happy and forget all the problems and materialistic bullshit, stop complaining about the bad things, because they always were and always will be and just enjoy the jolly season. You don’t necessarily have to  have good presents, money, expensive car or phone to be happy, no, it will never give you the sense of happiness. Just try to focus in positive and good things in life and it will bring much good stuff into your lives. And Christmas or New Year are the best time to change your life, your worldview and thoughts, fill them with light and joy. So here some tips that always help me get in the mood of the holidays, and I hope that it will help at least one person too. ๐ŸŽ†

Christmas to-do list

1.Firstly, of course, decorate your house or room. And the more there are lights and candles, the magical it becomes.

2. DIY. Use your creativity to make something, that you can give as a gift or just decorate with it your place.

3. Go for a walk especially at night, when all the lights of the city are on, build a snowman, have a snowfight, feel yourself a child again.โ„๏ธ

4. Bake some Christmas cookies, or just make a hot chocolate with marshmallows, it is a perfect way to spend an evening. 

 5.And at last, but not least, here come Christmas songs, books and movies. A perfect book for it is the old classic Charles Dickens “Christmas Carol”. 

For songs and movies here is my favorite ones.


  • Frank Sinatra-Let it snow, Santa Clause is coming to town, have yourself a Merry little Christmas 
  • Andy Williams-It’s the most wonderful time of the year 
  • Alan Silvestri-spirit of the season, Winter Wonderland
  • Bobby Helms-Jingle Bells Rock

Movies and cartoons:

  • The Polar Express 
  • How the Grinch stole Christmas 
  • Home alone(obviously)
  • Elf
  • The Santa Clause
  • Arthur Christmas 
  • Christmas with the Kranks
  • Love actually 

And lastly, you can write good memories of the passing year, make some plans, wishes, aims for new year, or just dream, cause all dreams come true one day. And remember that even the Grinch and Scrooge started feeling and believing in the end, so why couldn’t we? I wish everyone Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. โ„๏ธ